Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last Monday I put money in holstering's expired parking meter (14 points). In April I bought porn for ne_zhaley (10 points). Last Wednesday I helped nmrfxxr see the light (8 points). In August I invaded Iraq, broke it, and couldn't glue it back together before Mom got home (-1012 points). In May I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-979 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal! Sincerely, x-ms-vampire-x

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

Hahaha, I haven't updated in 4 days? How unlike me!

Yer~ so I haven't been around LJ and I still won't be because I'm so effin' busy. :/ I've been doing nothing particularly interesting/fun today, other than not going to school. Other than today, life has been a paiiin for me.

Screw that happiness meme. I failed at doing it every day so~ 8|

School has been going...eh. I'm trying to get all the work done as quickly as possibly and with little to no mistakes. I've been trying to get college-related work done as well, but that - regrettably - is the last thing on my mind. D: I always forget about it so I save it for days like this... as in: days where I'm caught up in doing so much work that I remember I have more to do. OTL I've rewritten my college admission essay......................again. Hopefully Queens College wants the same or similar essay to the one I'm writing for New Paltz. I'll just get Mrs.Romano to proof it, then I proof it, then hopefully that's it. I don't have time for 4 or more proof-reading.

AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON HOW INTENSE THE DRAMA AMONGST THE PEOPLE I TALK TO IS GETTING.
MY GOD, GIVE IT A FUCKING REST.

I want to buy Christmas presents, but I don't have any money (or more like NOT ENOUGH MONEY) to get something for those who I want to buy stuff for. Do I make sense? Probably not. orz IT SUCKS THAT ART SUPPLIES COST SO MUCH MONEYYY. Marley tells me about this place that sells supplies by the pound...so...I'm extremely tempted to find this place.

It's either that or I make time for handmade gifts, since that's been expected from me for any gift-giving holiday/occasion. Well...at least I'm getting my ass to work on commissions... I've done just three actual written-out commissions, and I have about six or so more to do. D: fajksbgkjagkj

I feel like my Crimmus presents will be sent out late this year. (;w;)

My paid account is almost...gone. (;A;) GKJNADKGNDAKJHNDA

I'M GOING TO DEVOTE MY AFTERSCHOOLS (OR AT LEAST TWICE A WEEK) TO EXERCISING. LET'S DO THIIIIIIIS JESSSSSS~ ♥♥♥

Mike called me two nights ago, at 11PM. I didn't pick up. I called him yesterday and found out that he only wanted to whine about Jess bitching him to hell and back. I applaud her. ♥ Fuck you Mike. I'm glad I'm not with you. You're such a whiny little pussy. If I wanted to date a girl, I would have instead of wasting my time on you. And Jess is right, you're basically dead to me. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BIIIITCH.

I'm overworked.
I'm stressed.
I'm tired.
I have no time.
And there's not enough time.

I hate school and all the stress and work that comes with it.

Tomorrow, I have to take my SATs in the morning. And for the rest of the day? I don't know. I might as well get my ass into gear and finish my St.Joseph's application and start the other three schools apps. I have no idea how to fill out my FAFSA and all of these fees, although very small, are a terrible reminder of my need for a job. It's the epitome of ridiculous. My own birthday is an inconvenience since it's next year and I'd like to have a full, legit license now and applying for a job won't be as tough since 18 is pretty much a "we'll hire you bb~~" age ignore the ones that ask for like...21+...

I've done some studying for the SATs. Mainly familiarizing myself with the writing, mathematics and such. There's a lot (for the math part) that I don't know or remember. D: I see failure ahead...BUT I WON'T SAY I'M NOT GONNA TRYYYYY.

Hrrrm...although I should be doing more studying, I really want to just play a video game... even if it's a game I've beaten before. I just want time to myseeeelf. (@_______@) Maybe I'll watch Supernanny - even if I do prefer Nanny 911...but it's the same thing, really - or wait for The Nanny to come on. GUILTYASCHARGEDILOVETHATSHOW.

Um...have some random photos!


Outfit from Thursday. I love this outfit~ pitty that this is the second time I got to wear it.


I wish I took a better photo because my hair was fairly poofy~! (*w*) I dunno if it stayed like that allll day though. D:


From.........................Wednesday? Monday? One of those. xD

Ok so I've FIIIIINALLY uploaded the photos from the sleepover. They're not interesting but I like them. It's a reminder of how good the day was, even if it was very simple and unproductive. xD



( Sleepover Monday ~ Tuesday [20+] )

glwhgnds;kas I have two embarrassing pimples, one on my chin, the other on the corner of my mouth, and ajfbasbgakljg STRESS. I know I'm stressed when I start getting pimples..... WHYYYY.

I wish I had a better computer...or at least one not as chunky as mine... :/ OR JUST A NEW SCREEN. AT LEAST GRANT ME WITH THAT. OTL

I've come to terms...that I had to change my layout.......a few days ago. xD I couldn't access some links on my layout (the Friends page, the "Edit" link for entries, Profile page, etc) and I have no patience so~ yeah. :| New-ish layout!

Hrrrm...I guess I'll do a bit of rambling. xD

My relationship with Mike has been...eh. I've told him that I didn't want to be with him, but I want to be with him, I like him but I don't like him and I miss him and I don't miss him. And it's all very much true, unfortunately. I swing from wanting to see him to not wanting to be with him at all. I've told him everything that was on my mind yesterday, and explained myself as best as I possibly could, and of course he was confused. He's worried about us breaking up (he says he won't fuss if we do, but that's clearly a lie) but I told him he needn't be. I'd like to be with him, but I don't want one of those relationships where you think you're happy, but when you're out of the relationship, you notice how not nice it was.

I have bigger things to worry over than a relationship, so I shouldn't freak out over this. Although I am, overall, unhappy with myself and the way I've been acting. I don't know, it's just not something I want to be like (I've seen other people act this way and it's an instant human repeller) and I'm going to fix it. And I'm going to try to stay in this relationship because 1 month isn't really special and I'd like to have relationships better than the ones I've had before my ex-gf (since she was pretty much le awesome orz).

SO LET'S TRY AND BE POSITIVE.

On an extremely lighter note:



Mmmm, shirtless Wesker. ♥ Still in need of a PS3. orz Waiting for one has been getting easier though! XD I can't even play Paper Mario religiously so...there's no way a PS3 would be a good idea now.

From October 30th~:


The Hispanic Heritage Month assembly from Friday (Oct 30th). I dunno why I recorded it. xD

Can't be bothered to take decent photos anymore~

Today was...ehhh, more of a waste of time than something that made me learn more about my fucked up body. To summarize what's been going on with my health for the passed, oh let's say, 4 months: When I wake up, I have mucus in my throat and it's disguuuusting. I also wake up gagging 5 minutes or so after I get out of bed. When I eat, I start gagging. I feel ill and dizzy at times, but those are short-lived.

So I went to the doctor and he said there's nothing really wrong with me.

..................

I find that hard to believe but oh, excuse me, I'm not a doctor! He said it's all in my head. :| WHAT?! Why would I want to gag?! It's so unpleasant. D:

I don't understand at all.

☆ Monday ☆


I can't believe it was finally cool enough to wear that sweater~! It's so comfy. ♥ If anyone has ever seen and are iffy about buying it, I say buy it! It keeps you nice and warm~ and, durp, it's comfy~ ♥

☆ No school
☆ Woke up early D:
☆ Picked up Mikey~
☆ Went to the carnival with him, my sister and her 2 friends
☆ Lost my glasses at the carnival
鬶 Went back home to pick up my back-up glasses
☆ Got dropped off at the movie theaters
☆ Watched Pandorum. Got lost many times but all in all, it's a pretty good movie.
☆ Got home reaaally late. ♥

Gah~ I have nothing to do~ I already finish my Trig work. "OTL

Though I am a little unhappy today, I'm gonna deal with it! Fuck it! I hate being sad so I'm just going to wait for tomorrow -- which will be a shit ton of fun~!

Woo~ Yoanna~! I love this ANTM cycle! :D :D

I had a awfully embarrassing but really wtf dream...

( Here we go. )

And that was it! Maybe I should look up what it all means...but I dunno how to do that. DX

I know I said I didn't like A&A, and I don't. I just like only one song, that being The Adventure. lulz

I was just trying to sign up for the SATs online, but then found out that my school "isn't administrating the test" on June 6th -- which I don't understand at all. So I guess I'll just go to my guidance counselor and make him help me with this crap. XD

Today was a relaxing day. Except for waking up because I, yet again, woke up with a unbearable pain in my right eye and that same spot above that eye. Why is it always on the right side?! I'm really worried now. D: It went away after I felt like I was going to vomit and put an eyepatch over my eye. This, honestly, is becoming annoying. I hope it's nothing serious.

Hurr...What have I done today~? 8D I beat RE4 again but in 10 hours rather than like 17! :D :D :D My sister and I dropped by Ashley's house, went out to eat at Taco Bell and then went to Ralph's Italian Ices on the way home. Then we spent like an hour (my mom, sister and I) talking at the kitchen table until my sister left at 5:30 to work.

Then my mom showed me the lovely, simple little things I need; Tylenol (some quick liquid relief type?), a pack of those strip that get rid of blackheads (let's see if that stuff actually works) and nailpolish remover. I swear, it's like she KNOWS. D: And she knows about the consistent headaches/migraines I've been getting.

Other than that, I've been snacking it up with the delicious party cake ice~ ♥♥ So good. ♥ At this rate, I'll never lose weight. Oh, funny thing about that: I've been eating quite a bit lately and I haven't gained a pound. I'm still at 130lbs but I feel skinnier...as weird as that sounds. But anyway, I shouldn't talk so soon. I'll jinx it. XD

Supposedly it's going to rain tomorrow. D: I wanted to wear my bunny sweater-dress with these shoes. I don't like those shoes so much, but they might match with them. I wish I was able to go on shopping sprees. D: Matching with no problem and having new outfits often would be great~. Which brings me to: GO GET A JOB. 8D

ffff I'll probably watch Ichi the Killer later today. 8| But what I should be doing now is homework. D: Bleh.

I can't thank ne_zhaley enough for ze Lolita music~ ♥♥♥♥

Thank you everyone, for wishing me to get better. ♥ I'm feeling a ton better compared to yesterday! Well, actually, I woke up feeling even worse: my right eye and the right side of my head felt like it was getting stabbed repeatedly. D: Then when I tried to massage it, I ended up throwing up. D: wtf. But I'm better now. :D

I went to Queens with my parents today. I haven't been down there in forever. D: I had to go because I needed to take photos of things that aren't...suburban.

( Random pictures from Queens. [+3] )

Hurr...what else?

Oh, we went to this diner called Jackson Hole. I think it's pronounced Hue though..I had a cheese burger platter...and...it was huge. The burger was so goddamn big that I didn't/couldn't finish it. D: I'm never eating a burger there ever again. DX After almost eating my own body weight in a burger, we went to the bank, stopped by Cablevision to tell those pricks we don't owe them any money and then I went to Nitu's. ♥ Picked her up and walked to the Morrow School playground. :D

I have a quick LAWLZFAIL for you all (and myself, to look back on): Some girl (that my girlfriend doesn't even know, mind you) came up to her and started talking all that silly gangster-talk. In short: gangster!girl was convinced by one of her other friends that Nitu was taking pictures of her while she was changing in PE. lolwut. The girl was ugly too. And apparently because Nitu's gay means she wants every single girls alive. Ooh~ I~ hate~ that~ kind~ of~ mindset~. I had to hold back every fiber of my being from choking her scrawny little neck. Nasty little thing. /RAGE

Anyway, we spent some time at the playground then then walked back home. Got home at like...6PM or something and here I am. :D

Uploading music and making an update. Woot.

I was really bored last night, and I didn't want to play RE4 because I'm up to that part where Ashley drives the truck (first time) and a truck with a boarded/tinted windshield. I decided to do some drawing. I only drew one person and it took 3 hours to do. I'll show it in my next post. :D

Other than all of that, I've been uploading music onto my MediaFire account. D: Not fun at all. There's more music on it, so CHECK IT. No use in letting it rot on the intarwebz. Enjoy.

I'm so amused as to how my sister's ex-boyfriend believes I'm "talking shit" about him. That's a shame because, well, I could care less about the guy. He hasn't learned from the first time people used my name in their silly little rumors, so why would he even learn the second time? I used to think he was a smart cookie, but wow was I wrong. :D

If he believes that I'm talking about him, then let him stupidly believe it. It doesn't matter what I say, even if it is my name in other peoples' mouths. Pfft, oh well, all of those rumors aren't important at all. They won't help me pass the APUSH exam, the Art regents or any other test I'm taking this year. SO GTFO, KTHXBAILOLOLOLOLOL.




Awesome belt~

Other than drama llamas, today has been a bit...tedious. I was kind of touched when people we worried about where I was yesterday. It made me feel...loved. Remotely. (;w;) AndNituisthecutestmofoevar.♥

MARLEY MAKES THE BEST BAKED CREATIONS EVER. As far as I'm concerned. :D


Nitu gave this to me. *spazz* I love Yoshi. D:

>
Oh and I painted a wall yesterday. :D



I really don't like the color itself...and my dad picked it out like the prick he is. It's a nice blue...if I wanted to live in an aquarium. I don't like blue, seriously. I told my parents that when the basement is done being painted, I'm drawing and painting stuff on it. :D Mostly Pokémon because seriously, the blue on the wall makes me think of Pokémon and PacMan automatically. :D I SO EXCITED.

I wanted to paint the walls black and gold or black and purple but my dad said those are "nigger" colors.

....I'm not even black and I found that offensive.

Seein as how we have no where to sit when playing VGs or watching ze tele, I told my mom that I wanted a lovesac. I told her it's general price and she said "go for it". :D But then my dad found out and was all "NO. YOU'RE GETTING A COUCH TO MATCH." And I instantly gagged. He is NOT picking out a couch. I hate my dad's sense of taste. He's a goddamn elitist when it comes to colors and matching. What he says goes and you're stupid.

Enthralling, isn't he?

Since the TV and all the glorious VG stuff is "put away", I moved it...


To the bedroom. (*w*) TIME TO PLAY GAMES FOREVER.

I like how "Jabberwocky" was read in the UK version. The US one sounded too...rushed or half-assed.

M'kay, off to go do...stuff.

I hate when my mom leaves all the lights on. AND THEN SHE COMPLAINS ABOUT THE ELECTRICITY BILL.

I've been up to...
☆ Ruining my "better eating" habits plan
☆ Sleeping a lot after school
☆ Doubling over in pain
☆ Gaming
☆ Hanging out with friends
☆ lolschool/hw/projects/drama

I ended up not going to school today because I felt like utter crap. :/ I've been having pain for over 3 weeks and I very much doubt that it's cramps. I'm not sure what it could be, but hopefully it isn't serious. Mostly when shit like this happens, it goes away when I'm about to go to the doctor. :/ And my mom wants to take me to the doctor but I told her it's probably nothing.

I might work at Panda Express but I don't think they'll hire me. Meh, I can give it a shot. It'll be a shot in the dark.I just need to figure out how to get there if I do get hired. Bike, perhaps. Good exercise and the weather is looking up. Well, no rain or snow, I mean.

Speaking of means of transportation, Jess and I are supposed to study for the permit test. YEAH, LULZ, WE DON'T HAVE OURS YET. OOPS. We're going to take it next month, during our Spring vacation (6th - 14th). I'm sure I'll pass, it's the driving that freaks me out. I'm terrible at driving..."normally".

I hate it when people just talk to me to brag. /RAGE/

Note to self: Stay away from pizza for a while. D:

(there was a long paragraph of bitching about parents but it's gone now.) LOL PARENTS.

I REALLY WOULD LIKE TO COSPLAY JEMIMA FROM CT3. PRZ. AND ALYSSA. JUST FOR THE LULZ THOUGH.

Aah, I'm almost done with that game. I keep getting killed by the last boss. He basically has the same abilities as me! D: I HATE YOU. HARD.

Today was kind of fun. My sister and I cleaned up the basement and my dad said that's he's going to start moving stuff around so we can put up our new and awesome TV. ♥ It shall be glorious. ♥♥ Maybe the old TV can go in our room, but hell knows where it'll fit.

Anyway, around 1PM, my sister and I went out for lunch. We had cheesy breadsticks and stuffed crust pizza from Pizza Hut. ♥ It's the best we've ever had! (*w*) Then we went to the mall and bought stuff (I got a shirt and a watch, and she got a shit ton of other stuff. D:). HT was selling this cute little mini top hat for $22...D: Fucking HT. FFFFFF My sister ended up being nearly late to work. When she dropped me off, I kicked back watched SOME of the original The Last House on the Left. Why some? Because the DVD kept skipping and the PS2 and my DVD player refused to play it. I still kind of want to watch the new one...and then again I don't.

Mixed feelings and all of that.


The oh-so-awesome men's watch that doesn't fit me. It was only $4~~ my sister had the skull one! :D ♥


I'm shocked that I got this shirt. XD I don't wear blue or yellow. As a matter of a fact, I hate yellow.

Yeah, that's it, other than how awesome some of Britney's Circus album songs are. D: And apparently I can't like Britney Spears because I'm so GOFFIX0RZ.

I guess I'll go finish CT3 or something. Maybe rant. mustrantmoarmygodwrrryyyy.